Most of you reading do not understand me and I am so thankful that you don't. Never would I wish losing a child on anyone, it is the worst broken heart ever.
Going back to April 15, 2005. One of the brightest days of our lives (my son and I). Finally after years of living in apartments, I was able to buy my first home. I did it as a single Mom. Proud and so excited.
The house was move in ready and was such a darling home, but you know you have to do things that make it yours.
Excitement was in the air.
June 8, 2005 the phone rings at 12:24 AM that my son, my only child had been in a car accident. So many emotions and thoughts rambling in my head as I called a friend to take me to the hospital, one block away.
What seemed like hours the doctor finally came it to tell me about his injuries and I abruptly stopped him, "I want to know how he is now and when can I see him?" the doctor, "Well. he's dead."
The next thing I knew they were lifting me up from the floor as I am screaming, mourning and falling so fast into a black hole with no way out.
Five years later I am still in that black hole. Desparately wanting to grasp onto something that will make all of this go away. Nothing is there....
My heart aches daily, it is so broken, but yet I must keep going. My "abnormal" normal life is so different than before. I am in a strange world with strange things all around me.
Today I want to share a slideshow I did for Dustin. Five years...seems like forever...how can I be living this life? I also have a website for him http://dustin-davis.memory-of.com/About.aspx
Help me to keep his memory alive....here is his slideshow...
Happy Friday to Everyone! I am so pleased and excited to introduce you to a new Artist on Etsy. Mark, from Novel Brand was kind enough to allow me to feature his art.
At first glance I loved his art, so unique. Enjoy getting to know Novel Brand!
How did you come up with your name? My sister and I came up with the name. I'd say a lot of our crafts are book or word themed.
Tell us about you and where you are from My name is Mark Saul. I'm from Los Angeles. I am an actor and a musician.
How did you learn your art? Days of practice.
What inspires you? My girlfriend Ilana inspires me. Most of the arts and crafts I make started out as something for her. Favorite part of Etsy My favorite part of Etsy is sense of community. I like how sellers and buyers can contact each other so easily. I also like the clean and easy to read layout.
I have been in a blog fog lately! Not sure where my head has been. Anyway I am back now.
Today is a simple share of some photos of Conchata Ferrell, Berta on Two and a Half Men. Her parents lived in my small town and my son's Grandma knew them. Anyway she came to town and we went for a visit.
A very nice lady and I am so happy she has had some success.
Our weekend was spent at a Flea Market which of course is a perfect place for me to be. We set up a booth with just 2 tables but lots of goodies for everyone.
Mike kept reminding me that we were there to sell not buy. You know some people take the fun out of everything. I did have to draw from my inner strength to resist not buying more than we took. How do you know when you have enough? Is there such a thing? Nah...
The people you meet come from all walks of life. You have those, bless their hearts that have to come there to buy what they need. Then there are the "nosies" that walk with their hands behind their back just looking to see what everyone has. OK lots of "how much can I get them to come down on their price" people. So cute to see their face when you agree. It is a win win situation.
Last there is me. Trying not to drool on everything as I gander about. I know exactly what I want. I just have to see it! I pick something up, look it over then think, "Oh this is so neat, I could do this or that." Then comes this annoying nudge....as I hear Mike say, "We came to sell not buy." What does he know. I hear, "Where will we put that?" So in my mind I am rearranging my house in my weak mind to know that it will fit somewhere. If I take a deep breath or do the old Lamaze breathing I can get through it.
Once back to our booth my mind is only the "treasure" I passed up. Before you know it, I am paying for it!
Oh well no harm done. It was a soggy weekend here and so we were in the perfect place to enjoy.
So now you all know I am really insane! But I love it!
